I have a confession….

I have not had a lucid dream in nearly 4 years!
Yep, the last lucid dream I had was the dream outlined in the post titled “Deep Trance Modeling in a Lucid Dream“.

I have no idea why.  I’ve been analyzing stuff off and on since then, trying to figure out why.

I’m not sure now, but the closest I can figure is some sort of mental block.

It’s frustrating. and it pisses me off at times.

Anyway, that is why this blog has sat dormant for all this time.  I went through several periods where I thought “How can I continue to write about lucid dreaming when I can’t seem to have any LDs of my own anymore?”

Part of my new plan is to push ahead and keep writing, but now I’m obviously just as interested in what can block LDs as in what/how to have them.

I figure if I go down this path on the blog, then maybe it will help me push through into being able to dream lucidly once again.

If you’re reading this in a feed reader, thank you for sticking around so damn long.

Much Love,

Bill



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Comments

  1. Tim says:

    Good luck!

  2. “I have not had a lucid dream in nearly 4 years!”

    Gah, you are mad.

  3. Albert Lauer says:

    I had several periods in my life when I had less lucid dreams, or even none at all for a while.
    The first time I noticed an immediate ban on my lucid dreaming was when every night I experimented with a technique to switch dreams.
    See The Awe of Awareness: http://www.albertlauer.com/lucid-dreaming-how-much-control-does-the-dreamer-have

    The technique I used was so random and haphazard that something inside me simply blocked lucid dreaming for some time. The manipulative control that the waking mind has been conditioned to praise may be well be what is blocking the natural flow and variation of your dreams.

    My awareness has enriched in more situations than just dreaming. I have learned to be open for what is presented to me, humbly even. I have experiences between waking and dreaming that I can not hope to consciously induce. My deeper self brings me observations and even has hobbies that my waking awareness would never even consider. My job is to be alert and without reaction.
    I have been aiming to bring the two types of awareness – dreaming and waking – closer together for the past 25 years and I have learned that it is not necessarily the waking mind that deserves the upper hand. The waking mind is often a rigid instrument that needs all the inspiration it can get from dream awareness. In other words it is not so lucid to begin with. When we start manipulating our dreams with the same vigor as we do most everything else or dreams may well become a place where we sit behind a desk all night. An how about the tendency of being cautious, that is also a big inhibitor of lucidity. Many people will hinder their dreams.
    In the mentioned blogpost, I also write about several dreams where the waking mind will have been an obstacle, since it is solely oriented in my current life experience. We are much more. Lucidity does not mean control, it means brightness. Integrating our minds – curing either our dissociation or desire for a tunneled vision – will bring this brightness.
    In a book from Carlos Castaneda, his teacher Don Juan, a Toltec seer, mentions that once someone has developed his dream body, all their dreams become dreams of power (another way to say lucid). So it is not just the ones that you can manipulate as if you were awake.
    That would make a poor dreamer. We can open to the wealth of dreaming and hope to lose our manipulative desires. Imagine what your awareness will be like when you – carefully! – align your dream awareness in with your waking life. Enjoy!
    Albert Lauer, The Awe of Awareness

  4. Einat says:

    Hi Bill,

    You should try using http://www.dreamzapp.com/
    DreamZ is an app that induces lucid dreams..
    It really helped many people have their first lucid dream! maybe it will work for you too 🙂

    Take care!

  5. Roy Reed says:

    Lucid dreams can be like anything else. You stop doing it and overtime you can lose focus and skill. I used to activly try to lucid dream when I was younger. And I was very good at it. I had no tricks. I just knew the moment I was in a dream. Try taking like twenty mins before bed and clearing your mind.